Come to think of it,
when you are reaching adulthood,
all sorts of feelings come to you eh?
Honestly,
there are all sort of feelings here & there,
and is time to really know how to handle your emotion well.
I sigh even happy things happen.
I smile even sad things happen.
So what is this all about?
some kind of bipolar disorder?
My heart craves for something.
My mind aims for something.
My soul search for something.
I think I really found " it ".
But I am so worried, full of anxiety.
I can't laid back, I can't relax.
I honestly dislike myself when it comes to this.
I screw things up a lot.
I say words I don't mean it.
I do actions that I am disgusted with myself.
Because I am afraid I will lose " it ".
One day.
Yes, one day.
Even though I am prepared to fight,
I am not yet prepared to lose.........
Someday, we will understand.