HELLO ~
HELLO ~
been missing for so long here !
ahhhhh~~~~~
I think I'm getting crazier & crazier.
I don't know why.
Cause I get that kind of feeling,
" You've to do it now, or else is too late "
maybe I feel that my time is running out soon?
teehee!
sounds like an dying person.
Actually I do really enjoy cheers more than emrs.
Is just tiring
but my team is someone I can truly call as a "Team"
Actually I'm not sure if I'm going through a emotional break down or what.
recently I heard from someone
" Once you hit the bottom, you will have no choice but feel high- and is that kind of super high, and aftermath, it will go down again "
I feel I'm experiencing this signs.
Actually is mentally draining.
High-Low-Low-High.
Do you think I still dare to define " closeness" ?
Do you think I'm still the one you know & like?
I feel that the whole world is crazy & pathetic right now.
People disgusts me - I don't know why.
I feel that the whole entire world is against me right now.
I feel that I've a lot of feelings but actually I'm empty.
am I just a sensitive person?
or I just don't want to hurt and get hurt anymore?
I feel that ever since everything that has happened,
I'm so afraid & insecure to go close to someone.
or to go share my life & problems with someone.
Cause I really am afraid to hurt someone,
and to let someone feels annoyed & uncomfortable with me.
that is really the last thing I want someone I loved to feel this way with me.
Sometimes it gets too unbearable that I start talking to myself,
or simply indulge in books that will let me escape & go into the character's lives-
and forget about mine own pathetic one.
Silent.
How long more will I act this way?
while trying to get myself back?
I'm crazy outside
but totally silent inside.
But don't worry !
everything has been good so far~
I hope everyone is fine too :D
