Friday, December 17, 2010

WOOTS!
today talked with new boys!
WOW, AT FIRST I THOUGHT THEY LIKE VERY VERY MAN!
cause they very big size, then I thought they are very the MAN that kind.
BUT!
LOLLOL.
they super friendly and they like to sing!
got 1 ah, think called Wayne, he said to me
" eh eh, you like Fang Ta tong? "
me: " No ahahhaha I only like Ayumi "
he" eh you look like him sia! and hor you like to sing ?"
Me: " Ya But I always out of tune one ! "
him" Really? eh , from the way you talked, your voice sounds very nice . so I think you sing should be nice"
Me:" HUH? my voice where got nice !!! hahahahaha! "

LOLLOLLOLL! SIAO!!!

then aftermath,
joked around with Dilys and Joeslynn.
LOLOOLLOLL!!!
SUPER FUNNY!!
say what " eh I going geylang now. "
AIYA. THE JOKE TOO LONG ALREADY.
basically I am the " Duck, she's the " Chicken "
LAZY TO TYPE !
wow, super funny!
then went home with Dilys.
then she said " eh eh, I only know you for 3 days. how come machiam like know you very long ah?"
me jokingly said : YA la !!!! we need to keep some distance. Later you fall in love with me"
HAHAHAHAH!
then she said " HAHAHHAA! KNS! I am da mei nuer eh! where will fall in love with a weird looking guy"
wow, she really damn joke !

AND TODAY..................
SO SO SO SO SO SO PISSED.

shout at me for what?
keep saying I am siding her.
I already told Lorrene I will not side anyone already.
I will listen to all sides and believe in my judgment.
Long time ago, I told ccr also.
say We will not take any stands and only believe in what we see.
and long time ago,
when I was listening to ear piece, and went to tag you both,
then said something like,
" You are secretly listening to us ! aiya I know la, you will take sides for her one"
I wasn't even listening at all la.
and I haven even said anything at all.
You have already built up this perspective long ago.....



then after I apologized to the two team 1 girls,
I don't mind apologizing cause is my fault also.
But having to chase after someone and keep apologizing,
and still wipe her shirt when I said : hey sorry !
I also feel a bit like.... wth....
But is really really okay.
cause since they angry at the things I said, even if I mean it as a joke,
I should still apologize.
cause different people have different joking style.

then you shouted at me for what?
you agitated, I won't be agitated also meh?
just screamed and said non stop,
of course I be pissed also what.
You got your story, lorrene got her story, shelei also got her story.
I am just a listening ear and trying to fix things right.
Not a person to vent your anger on.
Not a person that will take side just because I am close to someone.
even lorrene also said My tone like siding shelei.
THIS JUST........ woots..............


Then just now also talked to ccr,
just put my hand on his shoulder only,
trying to hear what he wanting to say,
" eh what's this for " - serious tone.
seriously just.................................

then aftermath,
wanted to go lunch with the group to clear things up,
waiting outside challenger
and never even got any reply.
really, I have my own temper too.
I got shouted on just because you think I am " siding " her.
I still keep my calm and wanting to explain everything I heard.
And waited outside like some stupid shit,
and just got asked to Go back First.

even after lunch ,
I went back and still asked Joanne
" eh shuhui still angry ah?"
then she just said I don't know.
seriously.............
and none came to explain to me or anything.
seriously just so so so so so so pissed.

and the worst thing is.............

" Actually we are not talking about shelei. we are talking bad about you. You don't believe. you can ask churong. he inside the room also "

Then...........
why none of you guys in the room came and explain to me?
that the person you talking bad about is not Shelei, but is me?"
Just anyone of you will do...
Is it so funny that I look really like a joke to you?
if you guys don' treat me as friends or whatsoever,
I don't care anymore.
the least you can do is to tell me,
"eh tell to shelei they are not talking bad about her. Don't let her misunderstand"
I don't care what people say about me,
but because of this,
that is why I feel why you guys talked behind shelei's back.
But the person is actually me.
This makes me feel a like a fool.


And you all still can continue the " MOUSE " joke,
even knowing she misunderstands.
Don't you all think you are just adding fire to the flames?
Ya, I don't know how many of you don like her or what - that I don't know.
But this MOUSE joke is taken from this event, isn't it?
I just feel that you all are taking this chance to exploit your " dislikeness " to her.
when things can be made clear easily.
Of course you all happy and having fun la,
a group of people doing it together what.
If you are alone, will you all still do it?
will you still put alone in your fb or msn pm
" we are the mouse!!"??
of course won't right, cause that will be so meaningless and " boring ".
I tell you honestly,
she is confused cause she thought you guys are talking about her
and nothing else.
but you all just continue on and on.
if you all don't like someone,
just I don't know la...
but just don't take any " Chance " and shoot at that person.

and my friends whom I know for 1.5 years and been through things together,
and whom I shared things with,
can't even bothered to tell me the truth.
and make me think in the wrong way.
and my friend who know me for 1.5 years,
is actually talking bad about me with someone she knows for less than 2 months.
and I never do anything wrong to that friend also.

really, do I look like a joke?

Put hands on shoulder only got said : eh's whats this for.
( ....... maybe now I am in the bad mood. Take this too seriously? )
say sorry and chasing after still wiped the shirt like I am a dirt.
( Already take the 1st step to say sorry and still act like this )
Saying bad things about me and make me misunderstood that they are talking bad my friend.
( Say all you want but at least you can tell to shelei the person is not her... )
Thinking I am siding someone and shouted at me.
( Oh well. )
Making me wait outside and thinking I could explain and got no reply at all.
( At least give me the chance to explain... )
None of the people I called as "Friends " bothered to tell me the truth.
( Ha... )
everything happened in a span of less than 5 hours.
I am so so surprised that I never lose my grip today.
still can joke around with emrs friends.
But I have my own boiling point too..........................


we are all the same.
People talk bad about you, you talk bad about People.
You think they are fucked up,
but you also fucked up what.
We are just the same...

The Fairy & The Funeral{6:49 PM}
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