Tuesday, November 23, 2010

TOUCHED BEYOND COMPREHENSION.

Omg... did you guys watched the channel 8, 8pm show?
omg.....
I'm really really so touched beyond words...

the mum and her child got the same disease.
the one that has no muscle growth ....
and have very difficulty in moving and walking
wow.....
the way how I see the mum take cares of his child....
I can really see how tired she is.
and she has difficulty carry him up the bed and stuff.
and she said everytime she carry him up, all her energy will be drained.
and what worst is.... her child can't move at all.
can't turn, can't walk etc.
so every little moves like turning his sleeping position, getting up etc,
all needs his mum's help.

and got 1 part, the crew took them to the voyage on cruise.
then the mum had a very very bad headache,
but still, she take care of his needs first,
and she said " Go.. go eat breakfast with them. don't worry about me.. just go.."
Wow...
this part, my heart just feel so ouch......
then despite her pain,
she requested to go down & eat the breakfast with her child,
because she said " I know he will be worried and he won't eat. so I've to go down.."
Wow. heart goes numb again.
This point, I thought my tears were coming out,
but AS ALWAYS, MY NOSE JUICE ONLY CAME OUT.
ahahahahah ~

THEN !!!
this part, the tv crew asked him what do you wish to say to your mum ?
he said something like " I hope my mum change her temper... But my pain is very unbearable sometimes.. and when I told her she will lose her temper. I know she is very tired taking care of me...but whenever I think of my mum. I feel like crying..... "
and he cried!
heart goes super super duper numbed.

THEN!!!!!
last part.... the tv put " A mother's voice"
then the ending shows her mum talking...
she said "Son... I want to tell you. I've the habit of losing my temper... But i really can't control it. I am sorry. I know you are in pain but I am in pain too. Please do not blame me... I'm really sorry... I hope i can stop scolding u.. You are always my son.. and I want you to be by my side always. I will never give up on you..... I am really sorry.... "
and she cried...........

and my heart really can't take it anymore.
I just can't stop crying !
is really too damn damn sad to the core already !!!!
luckily no one in the living room !
so paiseh!

sigh.......
I really think we are just too damn lucky already.
what they want was just an outing... they just want to see the sea together...
but they can't even afford it.
The mum's love for his child is just ... really damn noble & courageous.
Like what the tv said..
"the feeling of guilt they had for each other is greater than the helplessness they feel for each other"
Sigh..........

I really wish someday, I can help these kind of family.
This is true love.
and I feel a little disgusted with myself after watching this,
like, why am I wanting more?
why am I so selfish sometimes?
why am I so inconsiderate sometimes?
why am i so rude to people sometimes?
Gosh.
I really hope I can cast aside my shitty self,
and learn though this kind of real-life program.
I'm tooooooooooooooo lucky !
really. I mean it.
I hope to change myself !

I'm supposed to write the script for my role play now...
But my heart too itchy!
ahahhaa!
I really have to write this story down,
if not, I'll feel I'm letting them down.
ahahhaha!

Ok nights everyone !
Hope everyone can realize things somehow in a different way.
we are getting older....
can't always act the same inconsiderate & self-centered way....

The Fairy & The Funeral{12:14 AM}
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