Monday, November 8, 2010

I DON'T UNDERSTAND !!!!
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I VACUUM THE FLOOORRRR,
THERE IS STILL HAIR ON THE FLOOORRRRRRRRRR.
I need to sign up for cleaning lesson already !



and I just found out this week, we'll have 3 exams !!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!
SHOCKED LIKE NEHNEH ONLY.

This is for myself.
Not referring to anyone at all.
I need to talk to myself for better understanding myself
and write it down so I can see it myself in case I forgot.


To Shun:

One Color.

Heart still a bit numbed.
Don't know why.
What is happening to me???????
I'm so sick & tired of myself.


You see?
There are sometimes the days,
I keep thinking for when and for what purpose,
But I just have to keep going forward this way.
Just because I think we'll walk under the same sky again,
and laughing at simple & stupid things again
And that's all it matters.

But again,
the reason behind this smile
and the meaning behind this word
can't be understood.
Because I don't want to make them be understood.
It can't be helped.

It is not that simple to love.
I don't care if I look laughable.
Is time to stop pretending
what is important are not important at all.
If anyone thinks that they're such a victim,
then you should act it out till the end of your life,
this pretense of not caring about losing everything.
But once again,
Do you have the strength to carry on this act?
Will you be left with only regret till the day you completely lose everything?
I know you don't want to regret.
That's why you never give up on anyone else.
But when you hear them saying " let's break it off " or something like this,
even if you know that they don't mean what they say,
probably just a moment of emotion or anger ,
but......this emptiness just starts to set in.
so much so that you start to go numb,
and you start to laugh at yourself
" ! I don't even feel sad ! I feel nothing. hahahah "
and that is when the real emptiness come in........
you know that right? shun?
And what make you even zzzzzzzzz is that
people actually think you're a person who do something for others,
& expect something in return............
You are actually such a person in other eyes because you portray it yourself.
You are the one at fault. Can't blame no one.
I guess you need some time to get over such words....
You know you will.
But still you never want to give up.
I know you don't mind getting hurt or pain,
and if you think is worth it,
just keep going forward even if there is a wall ahead.
Because it is better to have loved & get hurt
then rather not loving at all.



If I just throw it out
and turn my back against anyone I cherish.

It is rude to the tears I shed that time, isn't it?

" Why can't we stay together like this & keep smiling ?
Until we end up losing each other someday "
- ALWAYS.

NICEEEEEE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Hit the raw spot of my heart.
Wootttssss !

The Fairy & The Funeral{1:52 PM}
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